Crazy Girlfriend

You know what's a dangerous rabbit hole to fall down? The bubble of tulle. You know what I kept drifting towards when I missed my boyfriend at the start of our long distance? The bubble of tulle.

Remember may or may not? Tip of the iceberg. I fell down that rabbit hole and didn't even try to get out. Even though I knew it was too soon to be sucked into the tulle vortex, I researched venues, started planning the guest list and thought about my registry.

I admit it was a lapse in sane girlfriend land. I knew perfectly well that even if I was in sane girlfriend territory I'm not any closer to getting a sparkly. And fortunately, I had enough self awareness to know I was doing this because I missed him and stopped cold turkey. I also knew that I was fresh off my dad's diagnosis and wedding planning was a happy distraction. (And also school started so I had other methods of distraction then too)

I did tell dr soc I had gotten a little internet research happy and that I found a venue that I liked. Fortunately he loves me and didn't think I was too insane (I think). Then again, I didn't exactly tell him how far down the crazy path I went either... But even more fortunately, he's a guy and really just has no idea how soul consuming the BOT is (or what the BOT is for that matter, nor does he know what tulle is). Though it may be prudent to check that he hasn't run away screaming and changed the locks after he reads this...

Quick Note

Just a quick update to let y'all know that I made it to Charlotte safely! I haven't unpacked everything yet and I'm still organizing everything, but it's coming along.

So far, Dr soc and I have joined a gym, went house stuff and grocery shopping, and discovered our local favorite Mexican food place. He took me to work and introduced me to people who all seem really nice. The dogs may be starting to learn they are no longer only children and I think they are calming down slightly around each other.

So in short, everyone is still adjusting to the new home/lifestyle/roommate situation, but we're adjusting as best as we can.

Away We Go!

I've already oozed some of my kitchen and memento things to my Charlotte house via previous visits there or the dr soc express. So now all I need to take with me are:

Clothes? Check.
Girly bathroom stuff? Check.
School stuff that I may need in the future? Check
Dog stuff? Check?
Dog: Sedated and motion sickness pilled? Check!
Nerves? Check!

Well ok then. Charlotte here we come!

Big Steps

I'm moving to Charlotte. Soon. Tomorrow soon. Remember that Dr soc got a job in Charlotte and I was going to join him when I finished school thing? Well, it's time.

Have I packed? Kinda. Am I excited? Yes, very. And I happy that I get to be with dr soc? Absolutely. But I would be lying if I didn't say I'm extremely nervous too.

I'm really nervous. Not only just top be moving to a new city, but also to be moving in with my boyfriend. I'm really really nervous about that. It's...it's a big step. That I made and epically failed at before. But big steps mean putting on my big girl pants...so...ok then, here we go.

I'm also really sad about moving away from home. And this time it's for good, I'm done being a boomerang child. My mom is taking this really hard and with my dad the way he is, I feel really bad about just leaving. I know none of us, mom, me, dad, and dr soc want me to put my life on hold. Especially since my dad's not going to "get better." But that doesn't stop the guilt from leaving this difficult situation, the relief from leaving it, and the guilt that stems from that relief.

But two and half years ago if you had told me Lexington wasn't forever I would have cried. If you had told me that I would go back to college and graduate and take the GRE, I would have laughed at you. And if you told me that I would absolutely fall in love again and with the greatest man, I would have called you a liar.

And so nerves or not, sadness aside and some major goals accomplished, I move on. Here I go!

New Years Resolutions

So a few days late but meh.
Last year I made a New Years Resolution I didn't post just in case it didn't happen.

Graduate.

And I did. Yay me! And I decided on grad school, and took time off my halves. So I accomplished my goals. Go me!

But it's a new year and time for new resolutions. And for 2011 they are:

1. Get into grad school
2. Break 2 hours for a half marathon (and thus start training for a full).

I probably could list more things, but 2 is good for me since I can't remember anything more than 3 things at a time. After that my head gets all 'splody.

Boy Crazy

L: I was kind of disappointed when I found out I was going to have a younger brother, instead of a younger sister. But then my mom explained that I wouldn’t have to share as many of my toys or clothes with a younger brother, and then it was all good. It turned out pretty well, I think.

me: was I the only one who wanted an older brother so I could date his friends?

LB: YES

L: Why doesn’t this surprise me?

M: boy crazy since birth.

me: just as I suspected.